I need to update this thing yet again. Let's see... classic story here. I was always a skinny kid. People always told me I was too skinny but I ate whatever I wanted and never gained any weight. I was almost anorexic looking until I was about 15 and then I started to gain. I stayed around 145 until I graduated high school which is a good healthy weigh for my 5'6.5" frame. I know the BMI charts say I could weigh less than that but I start looking too thin if I get much smaller than 145 (not that I have to worry about that lol). Anyways so I met my husband and we ate out.... ALOT. By the time I had my first baby at 20 years old I was over 200 pounds. Got pregnant again back to back and hit 230. Another kid later and you get the picture. I'm not blaming it on having kids though. I think once I had to start wearing plus sizes I kindof gave up on myself. The biggest I have ever been was 298 and that was a terrifying moment for me. My God, I am almost 300 pounds! I have a food addiction problem. I eat even when I'm not hungry because it tastes good. I'm trying to change. I'm 33 now and I often have this thought "I wasted my youth being fat, the time in my life when I'm young and healthy and I wasted it over food"

I KNOW I can do this. I've done it before. I lost over 80 pounds a few years back. I know what to do and I know I'm worth it, my kids are worth it. I will be there for them when they graduate high school and when they have their babies and need me. I'll be there because I am not giving up on myself ever again.