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Good Morning. Rough night last night. Bob was pretty wound up from his close encounters with the "wife" and didn't sleep well. Therefore ... me either. Of course, I ate like there was no tomorrow yesterday. I don't know what happened. I started out planning on a low calorie day and ended up mindlessly eating just about anything I could get my hands on. I am now officially avoiding the scale. That is also not a good sign. In this whole year I haven't done that. I'm afraid what it will say. I was home all day and didn't even exercise.
I will eat healthier today. I will exercise today. I will drink lots of water. I will NOT beat up on myself.
Bob told his dad about his woman's plan about being at the hospital on surgery day (which is still not even scheduled) and dad said, "oh, she won't come," Bob, "Dad, she's planning on being here." Dad, "she knows better than that, she won't do that." And so she can do whatever she can arrange to do ... we won't do it. She actually called Bob to ask him to call her daughter to ask her to arrange to take her to the hospital. Bob told her no. She said, "I'll call Carol then." Bob told her no. She never did call me. While I agree, most people in these circumstances would indeed want to be nearby if a loved one was undergoing such a procedure. With her ... I think it is more about power and control ... she asked Bob ... will you be there? Bob said, yes. Then I will too. It sounds weird I know but from the first time she met Bob's dad she has been trying to gain control and shut us out. It is not adult like. It is what it is and we must step back ... she'll try to do whatever she can. They aren't even really married. It really is too bad. It is an unfortunate situation that we find ourselves in ... it upsets me that it impacts my husband so much.
So ... please send me lots of good energy that I take better care of myself today instead of stuffing my face with crap. I cannot do this to myself. It is self destructive. It is not going to help me, Bob, or anyone else.
Stay tuned for more of as the toilet swirls!!! Keep those prayers and positive supportive energy coming!! There will be another day ... just another crisis with opportunity ...
May you all have a drama free, healthy day!!
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脂肪: 5.00克 | 蛋白质: 21.00克 | 碳水物: 42.00克.
早餐: fat free cheese slice, large egg, 100 Calorie Multigrain English Muffin, water. 午餐: Blue Bunny Light Yogurt. 更多的......
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3120 千卡
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运动:
坐着 - 5 小时, Precor Elliptical - 1 小时 和 20 分钟, 休息 - 9 小时 和 40 分钟, 睡眠 - 8 小时. 更多的......
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Hi buddy. I hope this will pass for you ~ and you can focus your energy on people who deserve it. I hope today is good day for you, and that you take some time for yourself. I know what it's like to overeat for emotional reasons. I had a bad night too. Let's forgive and make today a better day. Stay well!
2010年02月16日 会员：: RedGoddess
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Try your best to limit the crap eating if only because you know it will make you feel bad. Don't worry though--if you gain a little you will get back to yourself. I am proud of Bob for sticking to his guns--that can't be pleasant for either of you. Hugs to you!
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Hmm. Perhaps the whole low cal day thing isn't going to work for you till you're out of the woods. (Sometimes all the low cal talk on here makes me nervous. I know it works for some but it worries me nevertheless. I too have read about the benefits of fasting (some studies indicate the medical benefits of fasting really only kick in on a longer term fast) and I know it feels good to have a low day to purge and help boost the weight loss. THAT SAID, I think that when you have so much going on planning for a low cal day might have been setting yourself up. If you don't mind me saying! ANYHOO--It must be so painful for you to see your husband getting worked up about this awful woman when he already has so much to deal with. ARGH. LOL about the toilet swirling. SENDING GOOD VIBES YOUR WAY!
2010年02月16日 会员：: beets_yum
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{{madaboutmoose smiles broadly}} No fasting here ... just want to eat well and that may or may not mean low calories ... actually just counting them would be a step in the right direction!! Yogurt, fruit, whole grains, protein, avoid the simple sugars like the plague!!! LOL ... I forgot to tell you all of a silly thing I did yesterday. Remember that cake I made at Christmas? Well I made two layers of each kind (since I did it from box mixes instead of scratch) and froze the second layers. Foolishly ... I took them out of the freezer, made frosting, and made a cake!! LOL!!! Silly moose, silly moose.
2010年02月16日 会员：: madaboutmoose
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As the toilet swirls - LOVE IT!! New favorite drama! LOL As you said, eating crap isn't going to help anything, so try your best not to do it - it will just make you feel like crap later on. Are you at work today? Maybe being at work, and being on a schedule will help you, not only with the food, but with everything else. I like how the fake MIL said that if Bob won't help her, she will just call you - as if your not together on everything!! DUH!!! Oh well, just try your best to egnor her, and get on with your own lives. Were here for ya!!!!!
2010年02月16日 会员：: MomofTwoGirls
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Lol about the cake. It does seem sometimes that a cake will fix everything, but, alas it doesn't normally work that way. Agree that crap eating will only make you feel worse. Though, sometimes, the logic part of the brain fails when the stress gets overwhelming. You've been so proud of not turning to food during these stressful, worrisome times. And sorry for jumping on that low cal thing. LOL. I know what you mean. You wanted a healthy feel-good day. You'll have one. Just get that cake out of your house!
2010年02月16日 会员：: beets_yum
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I'm home today ... just couldn't face going to work. Turns out to be a good thing as Bob didn't sleep a wink and he's here too. Beets ... no worries about "jumping on the low calorie" thing ... I understand and actually your comment was helpful. Guess the junk food feast is a way to keep me humble ... see I'm still that same person ... vulnerable. LOL!!! Cake ... yea ... what was I thinking??? And, obviously fake MIL (love that Sarah!!!) doesn't know me very well if she thinks for one nanosecond that I will do something behind Bob's back!!
2010年02月16日 会员：: madaboutmoose
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As the toilet swirls!!!! I'm laughing my rear off! I know it is a Real Life Drama/Struggle for you and hubby. I'm sorry. Leave it to you though to make others smile when you're going through the ringer.
{{BIG HUGS}}
2010年02月16日 会员：: PurpleDeLane
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Lol... I love your sense of humor Moose! :)
2010年02月16日 会员：: Chris1979
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I'm sending you all the positive energy I have..... can you feel it? lol! stay strong Moose! you sound better this morning than the days before. about the eating, I understand it so well... It is hard to resist when there is so much pressure around. The only thing you can do is eating "healthy" stuff. Comforting food that is not too much loaded with sugar or salt. Whole grain bread with almond butter, fruits, pasta, nuts... and don't worry about the scale now. One thing at the time. You'll get back to your weight when all this "as the toilet swirls" is over. BTW thank you for this new expression I didn't know this one lol! ((((HUGS))))
2010年02月16日 会员：: jessyline
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aw Moose. ((hugs)) I missed some drama there w/ that lady. I have MISSED YOU! Love your 'these are the days of our lives' theme you got going. Try to eat the right things, you know bad foods just add negative thoughts to our heads anyways. Pig out if you want but not on cake! heehe.
2010年02月16日 会员：: cindyshine
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I've missed you too Cynthia ... how was your vacation???
2010年02月16日 会员：: madaboutmoose
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Giant hugs and good vibes. What about some soup??so comforting and easy too...I know I gain like crazy at the hospital whenever anyone has been sick-it just stinks to wait and wonder and worry. if the scale bounced up today it can bounce down tomorrow or the next day or whenever you give your attention there. be good to you.
2010年02月16日 会员：: sharonfriz
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I am sorry things are still so rough. I can only say I can relate-especially about the emotional part of eating. It is very hard not to really and to me it is better than, perhaps, smacking some deserving fool in their head...then again???? ;) Just kidding! Anyhow, I can understand the frustration of the pain in the neck plus the weight of the world dealing with the illnesses of your hubby and FIL. The good news is this will pass and you will be back on track in no time. Try being good to you and if you can not find 5 things to be grateful for then try doing 5 things for 5 minutes just for you if you can. Even if it is 5 minutes to enjoy the hot drink of your choice or 5 minutes hiding in the bathroom away from everyone else it helps to have that little bit of me time when things are insane. {{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}
2010年02月16日 会员：: dawn0001
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Unsolicitied advice: For your own sake, try not to spend too much of your own time and Bob's in the hospitial. It doesn't do *anyone* that much good and, though sometimes people *do* die, they are a lot stronger that you might expect (and, if they are under good care, there is much less to worry about). Time your visits intelligently, make your FIL know how much he is loved, learn to tactfully say "no," and when you leave, leave it all behind. If you are not versed in these techniques, you will be, shortly. Hang in there moose.
2010年02月16日 会员：: information
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unsolicited advice appreciated ... my dad died at age 54, I am well versed in hospital swirling ... not to be confused with toilet swirling ... we'll be okay ... my main concern is being there for Bob ... lots of turds swirling around in the fake MIL's toilet of life ... sorry for the visual!! Moose power rules!!! Holy moose hooves she's gone over the edge!!
2010年02月16日 会员：: madaboutmoose
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Love Dawn's idea about 5 things for 5 minutes.
2010年02月16日 会员：: beets_yum
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We might be on other sides of the world but our lives seem to be running in parallel. I have eaten anything and everything today and am also avoiding the scale. Lots o toilet swirling going on here too. Chin up, best foot forward....
2010年02月16日 会员：: flaxseed
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2010年02月16日 会员：: cindyshine
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Moose I have been gone all day but I have been thinking about you. Don't worry about the eating now. You know you will get it together. Take good care of yourself and try not to get run down. I know you have so much going on right now but try to focus on you and your husband. You will get through this together.
2010年02月16日 会员：: chattycathy1955
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