madaboutmoose的日记, 2011年11月7日

Warning. I'm grumpy.

Why am I grumpy you may ask. I HATE fluctuations. I have been ever so faithful with my way of eating and since I recorded 203.2 here on fatsecret I have been up to 205.something for the past two days. I get soooo excited and then BLAM. I also don't feel very good which is probably contributing to my grumpiness. Nothing major, just feeling "off" my whole system seems to be "off." So, I didn't go into the office this morning but I did need to head to town this afternoon for my group.

I know that I just need to stay the course and practice being patient. It's not that I expect to lose a pound everyday but it would be nice if I didn't gain 2 lbs overnight. Oh well.

So. I don't feel like doing a grateful list. Which is exactly why I need to do it. I also don't feel like writing my "goals" which I probably also need to do.

So here goes grateful ...

1. I am grateful that we remembered to set out clocks back on Saturday night.

2. I am grateful that I have not used my frustration as an excuse to vary my way of eating.

3. I am grateful for cars that work.

4. I am grateful for a paid holiday this coming Friday.

5. I am grateful I can come here on fatsecret and be grumpy.

Okay. One thing done. Now on to the next.

I am kind to myself. I take care of myself. I sleep well. I listen closely to my body's hunger cues and provide it with the nutrition it needs to efficiently burn fat and shed excess pounds. I believe in myself. I am persistent. I am determined. I am patient. I am a successful businesswoman and entrepreneur. I am an expert in my field. People pay me for my expertise. I am organized and efficient. I plan well and follow through with my plans. I manage our finances wisely. I earn $100,000 a year. Our wood shed is full. Our dental needs are met. I have money saved for a vacation in February 2012. I am responsible.

Do I feel better? Not really. But that's okay. It's not like it is magic. It is simply the practice, the process that is so important. Maybe tomorrow the scale will be kinder. You would think by now I would be past being upset by fluctuations on the scale. When I was closer to my goal weight I think I handled them with more grace. I'm still struggling with that "black dog" on my shoulder who continually barks at me that I am NOT going to be successful. I am working at not feeding that "black dog" but it is quite insistent. I've experimented with "not weighing" and that wasn't positive for me. I need the daily accountability ... otherwise I seem to use it as an excuse to "have a little of this and a little of that" and that is how I ended up back over 200 lbs. Again. For the kazillioneth time in my life.

See what I mean? So easy to be unkind to myself. It does not matter how many times I have weighed over 200 lbs. It does not matter. I am more than a number on the scale. I have a husband who loves me, a good job, loving friends, a roof over my head, an automobile that runs, clothes in my closet I can wear ... truly ... there is no reason at all for me to be grumpy.

Group will help. It always helps for me to shift my focus from myself to someone else. I get too wrapped up in my own process sometimes.

I hope the sun is shining on some of you today!!! And you have enjoyed a good day!!!

Thanks for listening to me, as always!!! Take care.

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