Did well yesterday until evening. My diet calendar does not reflect the crackers, cheese, and small dish of ice-cream I ate. Today is a new day.
Have I mentioned that my husband has the patience of a gnat? He is driving me nuts. We are waiting for an online account to be funded and he is on the computer everyday, in the morning and the evening bemoaning the fact that the account is not yet funded. We received a message from the account, indicating they received the transfer 8-22-11 and that it could take up to 3 business days before the transfer was actually funded to the account. Let's see, today is 8-23-11. Yesterday was 8-22-11. Three business days according to my math is around 8-25-11. But he is certain there is something wrong. That was my morning. Ugh. Not a word of conversation on our commute into the office today. I was patient, I simply re-read the message and indicated it had not been three business days yet ... while I tried to finish getting dressed, making my lunch, pumping the water, doing everything I do every morning while he sits on the computer ... fretting. I do love him, really I do.
I have an extraordinarily busy day ahead. I know, I often say that perhaps because I often have busy days? Five home visits today. Should make the day go quickly ... so I can return to my peaceful home and listen to my husband fret. Joy.
I visited
The Office Sandpointyesterday as a place to begin my new little part time business and was very pleased!!! The facility is very nice and the price is quite reasonable. Co-working space ... what a great idea!!! I booked a day next week to try it out and then I'll make a decision about ongoing space.
So ... I suppose I am grateful ... I must be!!!! Let's see what I can come up with this morning.
1. I am grateful I did not make some smart aleck remark to my husband during his fretfullness this morning. Grateful not to have regrets.
2. I am grateful for the concept of co-working space and its availability in my little town.
3. I am grateful for my girlfriend, Valerie, who helps keep me sane.
4. I am grateful for my fan ... which makes sleep a little more possible on these warm nights (no air-conditioning when you live rustically like I do!!!)
5. I am grateful for the hope of change.
Why did I eat what I ate last night? Stress. A poor excuse I know but I did it in response to yet another "fret episode" at home. I knew what I was doing, I made a conscious choice and therefore I refuse to beat myself for it. Just have to make a different choice today. That is my way of being kind to myself. Accepting myself as fallible, human, and easily able to fall into old coping habits when I am stressed. Sigh. I best be getting to my work here ... before I must take off for my series of home visits. Need to get some paperwork done ... don't want to fall too far behind. May you have a fret free day today ... at least self-imposed fretting. It is enough to be witness to the fretting of others. Take care!