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madaboutmoose的日记, 2010年12月21日

Did your mother ever tell you ... "if you don't have anything nice to say, say nothing at all" ? Well, with those words of wisdom I was tempted not to write anything today. I'm still struggling and just feel like such a "bah-humbug" that I didn't want to tell you.

But ... you have all repeatedly told me that it is okay to express what I am feeling ... so there you have it.

I look at the picture of me here and I don't feel like that same person. I feel FAT. Of course I am a little plumper these days. I am working to not beat up on myself but I fear I'm not doing a bang up job. My husband is supporting me, you all are supporting me, and I just feel YUCK. I can feel it and I don't like how I feel.

Yet ... I will carry on and there will be another day. Hubby wants me to make Date Nut loaf so he can take some to work. I usually make many loaves and share it with my colleagues. Have not this year. I think I'll buy some ingredients and bake tonight. I think I will not worry too much about my numbers until after Christmas. Then I need a plan to kick my rear into gear.

WOW ... Hot flash.

My herbs arrived today. Maybe they will help balance me out a bit. I'm pretty sure some of my malaise is hormonal. I haven't even put out one single decoration. Will need to this week as my son loves Christmas and will think his mother has lost her ever loving mind if the tree is not up in the living room.

I'll keep exercising, I'll continue weighing, and simply move through this.

I am grateful for ...

A beautiful sunrise over the lake this morning.
Others who believe in me even when I feel super funky.
The arrival of my herbs.
Hugs.
Meeting with a former client yesterday who has stayed clean now for 5 years and getting to see all her children.

I have not given up on kindness towards myself ... I'm just challenged lately. Thanks for all your comments.



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This is a challenging time of year for all of us. I am grateful you are here and I know we will all think of a new motivating plan for all of us in the New Year. New is good and I think we all need something we can be excited about again. We will find it. We will do it and before you know it I will be wanting to sneak in your suitcase and sip fancy margaritas in Mexico!!! Just dream of how beautiful it will be and how great you will look!! 
2010年12月21日 会员:: chattycathy1955
I'm with you...I want to make it through the holidays and then really work on where I need to be. I am choosing to be proud of myself for every candy, fudge,muffin, bread, cookie, dessert I pass on. You wouldn't believe how many times I day I get to be proud of me...sharon 'just don't gain 'is my rule right now and thats pretty hard during this season. Be kind to Moose and come the first there will be some master plans on where we plan to be in the new year. chin up...all will be well. 
2010年12月21日 会员:: sharonfriz
I agree with all the above!!!  
2010年12月21日 会员:: madaboutmoose
Let's just get through to New Year's day! Don't give up - just coast for now! 
2010年12月21日 会员:: abbadabba
Yup ~ I am clinging to my vine barely. BUT, I am committed, Jan 2 ~ down and dirty, even if I have to walk in circles saying "I CAN DO THIS". I am adding another goal, 3x a week exercise of some kind. We all will do this together Moose! All of us that have put on a few lbs are feeling FAT, you are amoung a bunch of us there. I have allowed some old habits to show their heads, but Jan 2nd I start chopping them off. You too, we will do this together, we are a team!!! P.S. Yea, hot flashes and hormonal crap sucks! 
2010年12月22日 会员:: The Next Number
Carol, I feel for you and wish I had some magic solution. But if you keep coming here, and keep journaling and just coast for a while ... hopefully it will all come together for you soon. My heart aches to hear you. I am usually in a funk at Christmas and have found this year so much easier and think its because my blood sugar is controlled and I don't have the highs and lows that I normally have. One foot in front of the other, this season is almost over. Do what you have to do, minimal is fine. Enjoy your son's visit over Christmas. Love yourself as much as we do and if you can't, we will do it for you. HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS You are so precious. 
2010年12月22日 会员:: sarahsmum
Express Away Moose... Let it Go, Let's dance buddy! TOWANDA!!!!!!  
2010年12月22日 会员:: Lisa Online
Indeed ... that is my plan ladies!!  
2010年12月23日 会员:: madaboutmoose
Good Moose, glad to hear it. Per chance I don't get to my journal later or tomorrow, MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY FROM ME AND MY FAMILY!!! 
2010年12月23日 会员:: The Next Number
heya Miss Funky! Fill'er up w/ Christmas spirit and enjoy Christmas time, give the man what he wants (date bread lol) I would REAAAAALLY love some too, hoping gma makes it too. I know times are hard, but live in the now... don't regret spending this time too upset. I know you will succeed at the losing game one more time and this would have all been worth it, becuase you know? what fun is it being entirely done anyway??????  
2010年12月23日 会员:: cindyshine
I love you Moose, Merry Christmas! 
2010年12月23日 会员:: cindyshine
I think I may need to consult with my doc ... the more I think about it today I think I am really struggling with menopausal stuff. In the past I wasn't a candidate for bio-identical hormones or any kind of hormone because of the migraines and the blood clot I had a few years ago but maybe he'll consider it. I just feel too awful ... just not me. It isn't just because I've gained a few either. I know darn well I can take it back off. The sleep disturbance alone is enough to make someone feel crazy. My baby boy (almost 30 years old ... LOL!!!) is coming home for the weekend. I've made some yummy macaroni salad, clam dip, the prime rib is in the fridge ready to be cooked ... I'm going to enjoy the celebration and find my way back to me.  
2010年12月23日 会员:: madaboutmoose
I love you too miss cindyshine!!! 
2010年12月23日 会员:: madaboutmoose
Hi Moose!!! I hope you have a wonderful Xmas!!! We all seem to wax and wane on our journeys... we are hear to pick each other up as necessary!!! :) 
2010年12月23日 会员:: Chris1979
oh yeah, thats a whole other story - I don't know too much of. I hope you find a solution for that pronto.  
2010年12月24日 会员:: cindyshine
Merry Christmas Moose! 
2010年12月24日 会员:: jessyline
Merry Christmas Moose....hoping that you are feeling better! 
2010年12月24日 会员:: ctlss
Random fact: I'm not able to take bio-identical hormones either! I ended up in the I.C.U for a few days to find that one out. LOL. I hope you are feeling better my friend. Maybe some extra vitamins could help? How's your D and B12 looking thses days? :] 
2010年12月24日 会员:: Shae206
Lol, your ever-loving mind is so great, Moose. Power and beauty come from within. :) I haven't wrapped my presents yet - might be up very late tonight. Join the last-minute club. ;-) We are juggling moms and professionals. Yes, after Christmas will come the peace and blessing of balance, plans, and health. Wishing you every blessing this Christmas and always. :) 
2010年12月24日 会员:: Bible Bliss
Moose, wishing you a very Merry Christmas and a Happy, Healthy New Year. TOWANDA!!! 
2010年12月25日 会员:: Lisa Online

     
 

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