madaboutmoose的日记, 2010年09月7日

Good Morning!

My apologies for the brevity of my journal entries this past weekend ... I've just been busy and haven't been around the computer much. Maybe some of you were relived!! LOL!!! No long diatribes from Moose ... thank goodness she isn't reminding us to be kind to ourselves!!!

Saturday and Sunday were both get up first thing in the morning, fix breakfast, and head out to cut wood. Saturday, when we were done, Bob wanted to 'get out of the house' (hadn't we been out of the house for hours?) and so we took a little trip to Home Depot and goofed off a bit. Sunday's cutting expedition was sort of elongated due to the rain. We cut, we waited, we cut more. We've not been splitting much ... mostly because this is the densest, heaviest wood I've ever seen in my life!!! It is still at tad green and so we are cutting it into rounds and making a huge pile that we can split later. We are thinking about renting a splitter to make it a little easier on ourselves, rather than trying to do it by hand.

Yesterday ... we went over to a friend's house to help them reinforce their barn roof. It was in sad shape. I think it will be able to make it through another winter now ... put in some posts, reinforced a board that had split, took ALL day.

So today is MY day. My day to do everything I had hoped to do over the past three days!! LOL!!! Fun things like pay bills, ship off eBay stuff, post more silly collectible things on eBay in hopes that someone out there will enjoy my clutter more than I do!! LOL!!!

I continue to weigh everyday, count my calories most days, and continue to learn how to be more at peace with the range of weight my body clings to. It feels good most of the time. It seems a bit strange not to talk about 'losing.' Instead ... I will talk about living.

One of my newer buddies PMed me today ... looking for "inspiration" ... because she just wasn't "feeling it" today. Well ... I'm not sure I have inspiration!! LOL!!! All I know is that each day comes. I make the choice whether to embrace what is before me or to rail against it. I can be present in this moment or be focused on what could have been yesterday, what I wish was today, and what might be tomorrow. Some days I am not 'feeling it' either. I think that is true for us all. Foolishly, I used to think the goal was to feel "good", "up", "be in a good mood" all the time. I think that is hogwash now. I certainly do prefer feeling "up", "good", "in a good mood" but the reality is that my feelings fluctuate ... much like my weight.

Nobody feels "good" all the time. If you think they do ... remember you are comparing their "outsides" to your "insides"!!! Perhaps they are just a better actor or actress than you are!!! Some days are simply days to slug through ... being a ever present slug!!! You all know I love my husband dearly ... he is truly the love of my life. Do I always 'feel' lovingly towards him? Sure I do. LOL!!! I am NOT floating on a cloud of romantic feelings each and every day!!! What I so love about him is that we are REAL with each other. We do have a lot of fun together but we also slug well together through difficulties, through the more mundane tasks of everyday life, we are able to tolerate the little irritations we have with each other.

So ... today, as we slug through a Tuesday after a long holiday weekend for some ... I am grateful for ...

1. the mundane

2. a long list of "to do" items ... probably longer than the hours in the day I have to do them

3. reality ...

4. reading the "weigh in now" sign on FS and ignoring it!!!

5. a busy, busy season!!!

And so ... kindness is best practiced when we are NOT feeling it. The optimal time to practice self-acceptance (no that does not mean you "like" something ... simply that you accept it) is when we are wanting to rail against what is. Focus on little moments and those little moments add up and soon it is another day, with another feeling rising to the surface. So easy to be happy and kind to ourselves when the scale is declining, when someone has cleaned the kitchen without being asked, when our pocketbooks are full. Much more difficult when our co-workers are annoying us, when the scale has not budged in the 'right' direction in three days, when someone left their dirty clothes on the floor again, when our alarm didn't go off and we are late for work, when all we can see is our muffin top when we look in the mirror!!!

Okay ... I feel like I've rattled on without much rhyme nor reason ... I hope it makes sense to someone. I am ready for water and elliptical ... a very good combination!!! Going to listen to some tunes and with any luck I'll get a little Pilates in later ... stretch myself out!!! I am practicing kindness towards myself and will continue. For me? It must be a daily practice ... it still doesn't come naturally ... and so I'm still in the practice league!! LOL!!! Have a good day!!! Take care of yourselves!!! Be good to yourselves!!! Practice kindness towards YOU!!

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