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Another rainy day in Paradise!! LOL!!
All is well. Slowly my body is recovering from the work out I gave it while doing yard work over the weekend. Slowly my numbers are inching back down on the scale ... this morning was 182.2. I'm waiting to record until Friday ... perhaps my new routine? Who knows ... I write it down at home and still weigh almost everyday but I'm feeling like changing up all sorts of things lately!
I woke up famished!!! I realized when I was in bed last night I was hungry as well. Not hungry enough to get out of bed and eat!! I enjoy feeling hungry and then choosing something healthy and nourishing to eat. So different than the random grazing I have done most of my life, eating one thing after another ... looking for what 'satisfied' me.
Another busy day at work. Lots of busy days lately. The days sure go by quickly!! Mom is treating my hubby to a hotel stay over the weekend for Father's Day!! Of course I benefit greatly from that gift as well. I got a travel reimbursement check in the mail and we are going to go fool around at a local casino. It will be fun. It is Bob's first father day without his dad so we decided to go gamble in his honor. He was quite the gambler!! Maybe we'll win like Cathy does??? One can always hope, right? I've been 'fatherless' for nearly 2 decades so father's day isn't as bittersweet as it has been in years past.
The other news is that my long lost stepdaughter appears to be reaching out to communicate. She celebrated her 30th birthday in April and we have had no communication with her for a number of years (long, long story). We chatted for a few minutes on facebook last night. I'm a little nervous about re-establishing communication. Her choices and behaviors have caused a tremendous amount of anguish in our lives over the years. I'm being cautious while at the same time holding the space for opportunity. Time will tell.
Today let me be grateful ...
1. for the ongoing opportunities to reconnect even when there has been pain, disappointment, and anguish;
2. for the playful banter I have with my buddies, here on fatsecret and in face-to-face life;
3. for the joy I feel when I observe a parent and child interacting playfully, lovingly;
4. for hot coffee on rainy days;
5. and finally (for today) for feeling the benefit of the kindness that I have been practicing towards myself ... so much better than berating myself and feeling 'less than' most of the time!!!
(Deep SIGH)
Okay ... I must get a couple of things done here before I head out for my first visit this morning!! Feeling good about ourselves is NOT vain. So many of us here have felt less than good about who we are in so many ways. We are fallible creatures, all of us. Practicing kindness, celebrating ourselves is contagious and beneficial to many more than ourselves and therefore NOT vain, NOT selfish, it is NECESSARY for our overall health and wellness. I will continue to work on embracing my fallible self, being kind towards myself, and feeling good about who I am. Doesn't mean I 'love' my short-comings, just that I own them. After all my friends ... we cannot change what we do not own. Have a great day!!!
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脂肪: 33.33克 | 蛋白质: 98.76克 | 碳水物: 181.95克.
早餐: corned beef, Brummel & Brown Yogurt, water, Jarlsberg Lite, large egg, 100 Calorie Multigrain English Muffin. 午餐: yoplait light thick & creamy, Yoplait Yogurt Parfait, white turkey meat, Jarlsberg Lite, Whole Wheat Sandwich Thins. 晚餐: Healthy Choice Honey Ginger Chicken. 小食/其他: Turkey Meatloaf, Marathon Energy Bar Crunchy Dark Chocolate, Knudsen Cottage Doubles. 更多的......
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运动:
案头工作（例如办公室的工作，坐着） - 9 小时, 驾驶 - 2 小时, Precor Elliptical - 40 分钟, 休息 - 4 小时 和 20 分钟, 睡眠 - 8 小时. 更多的......
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First of all I have to say I love your last paragraph. How right you are. It is not vain at all however it is difficult at times. I am still practicing it. Being kind to others has always come naturally to me but being kind to myself is quite the opposite. The thoughts that run through my head and how I beat myself up about everything is awful and today because of your journal I am going to be concious of having positive and good thoughts about myself. Thanks for the reminder. Also how great to get a room for the weekend. Will we be having Cosmo's or Margaritas? lol Have a great day Carol!
2010年06月16日 会员：: chattycathy1955
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Oh dear ... Cosmo's? Margaritas? ... I just don't know!!! Trust me though ... there is definitely an alcoholic beverage or two in my future!!! LOL!! There is a new restaurant we want to try on Saturday called Texas Roadhouse. It may be a chain but it is new to me. I hear the food is awesome. Pretty sure it isn't low calorie but then I recently learned I do better when I eat MORE calories!!! LOL!! I'll be sure to report back!! So what goes well with steak???
2010年06月16日 会员：: madaboutmoose
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I think I would have a martini before my dinner and wine with my dinner and a B52 coffee after my dinner. lol
2010年06月16日 会员：: chattycathy1955
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Hi Moose! I hope the reconnection w/ your step daughter goes well. I know I made a lot of dumb choices when I was younger maybe she is more grown up now and it's going to be a good fresh start to a great relationship! :)
2010年06月16日 会员：: Chris1979
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I love your last paragraph too :) I find it very frustrating that our society pushes on us that we need to have good self-esteem, but if we say "I look beautiful" people think we're vain. I feel beautiful, myself these days and I feel proud of the body I've been working for. It isn't a judgment on anyone else, only appreciation of myself. I think if it's okay to say "You're beautiful" to your best friend, It's okay to say it to yourself.
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Another great journal, you are my "quote of the day", always so inspirational! About your step-daughter, she is 30 now, it is possible that she grew up, changed her mind and only tries to make peace with her past. I hope it will be all right. I wish yu luck at the casino!
2010年06月16日 会员：: jessyline
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Whoa! You got it, AMEN to that there in the end. OH MY! Texas Roadhouse! Yum and fun!!! We don't go there often enough. The bread is killer. Killer GOOD! I love LOVE their sweet potatoes. its baked, don't get it loaded! I am pretty sure they bake it in a pound of butter (or 2) but so soft and sweet good. I want some now, thanks. I get that w/ steak or chicken. No salad, no frys nothing else, just room for a bun or 2. Hub loves their fried catfish. As for the daughter, I grew up after kids and learned to forgive my father for some of his faults. He passed away way before either of us could make up for lost time. Its got to be wiser to just let go of some of the past and try to build from brand new today. (sometimes, hopefully you can) Enjoy your night at the casino, sounds fab! I think I will look into that for our family, thx for the idea! Kids can go, and they have a nice pool at ours
2010年06月16日 会员：: cindyshine
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Wow, Moose, I read your last 2 days journals and am blown away. You have more insite in your pinky that a lot of people do in their entire body. After all you have been thru, and am stunned at the awesome words you are putting down. This almost makes me cry. Very very emotional writing. Your reflections are so accurate. You have given me much food for thought, "we cannot change what we do not own". There are no words to express how much meaning is in THOSE few words. Please have a wonderful evening and thank you for what you have conveyed. I am glad beyond words that you are my buddy.
2010年06月16日 会员：: The Next Number
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Thank you NN ... you are very sweet. It's just me. The last few months have been so all consuming I feel like I was 'away' from myself. This week, for whatever reason, I feel like I am rediscovering my balance.
2010年06月16日 会员：: madaboutmoose
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