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Good Tuesday morning.
I'm up and alive and hanging tight. Hubby returned to work today. He is feeling much better. Thank the Lord above.
Me? Oh I'm dragging. I had a good but very full and busy day yesterday, not arriving home until after 7 pm. I've managed to continue to track food and exercise though so that is good. Did half of my DVD this morning, 20 minutes of Pilates. It works well for me to alternate sections during the week when my time is more limited. One section is 20 minutes the other is 30 minutes. Scale dipped again a bit but I'm not yet feeling enthused about it. It was 213.6. I still am bummed out about being so far above 200. I'll get over it. It is what it is.
I guess I must also be feeling sorry for myself. Having a hard time accepting what life is like these days. Overall work is good. I have so many blessings but I find myself drawn to what I have lost. I also find myself dreading the future. I hear the counsel from Flaxseed, who lost her DH this past year, and try to remember what we still have but am finding it difficult. I feel old. Very old. I feel lonely too. Thank goodness work keeps me busy though. I don't have a lot of time to be so darn self-centered and that is a very good thing. I know I am not the first woman to go through this and I know I will be fine ... it's just the process I don't much enjoy.
So I keep reminding myself that I am worth it and the point is that I feel better about me when I am taking care of myself. One foot in front of the other. Think about what I am grateful for ...
I am grateful for my mom who is always there to listen to me.
I am grateful for my work which gets me out of myself.
I am grateful for daily morning coffee.
I am grateful for having a friend who is experiencing similar circumstances who makes me feel less crazy.
I am grateful I have not given up on myself.
Okay ... time to rock and roll.
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早餐: Egg, Sweet Italian Links Sausage, White American Cheese. 午餐: Pico De Gallo (Mild), Boiled Egg, Chicken Breast Meat (Broilers or Fryers) , Cottage Cheese (Lowfat 2% Milkfat) . 晚餐: Boneless Skinless Chicken Breast, Original Iceberg Garden Salad (Zip), velveeta shreds Queso Blanco, Litehouse Yogurt Ranch Dressing. 小食/其他: Miller 64. 更多的......
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运动:
驾驶 - 3 小时, 普拉提健身操 - 30 分钟, 休息 - 6 小时 和 30 分钟, 睡眠 - 8 小时, 案头工作（例如办公室的工作，坐着） - 6 小时. 更多的......
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 评论
Hi Moose Glad hubby is feeling a little better. You are so worth the effort of taking care of yourself. I do understand your loneliness and the dread of the future, but don't waste today because every day has some joy in it if you look for it(sometimes you have to look real hard) - you can't have it back once it has gone. I'm just over a year down the line. I thought I was logical and grounded and had my head round the situation. I have to tell you I knew nothing and the time I spent worrying and bemoaning my lot was wasted time. The loneliness now is crushing even when in a crowd. Everywhere there are couples and invitations from people I thought were friends have fallen by the wayside now I'm a singleton.(read threat here). I have a smile on my face and after all it is a year now, so I must be 'fine'. No hugs or a pat on rump. On the upside, I can please myself - stay in bed if I feel like it, eat what and when I like and spend my money on whatever takes my fancy. Keep putting one foot in front of the other and remember with age comes experience and wisdom?
2012年07月17日 会员：: flaxseed
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Thank you Flaxseed. I know you are right. I just need to wrap my head and heart around it.
2012年07月17日 会员：: madaboutmoose
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Sending long distance cyber hugs...sometimes a good night's sleep and the sunrise make all the difference ( a cup of coffee with your favorite creamer helps too ) : )
2012年07月17日 会员：: sharonfriz
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its too early for you to have your light on : )
2012年07月18日 会员：: sharonfriz
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