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Still really not proud of my weight. My body seems to be fighting itself for some strange reason. I don't know if its been what I've been eating lately, or if my body is starting to react differently to certain foods. I was eating a lot of fiber last week which usually isn't too bad but it was making me get incredibly bloaty, and I also had been eating a bit more dairy than usual, which also added to it, so now I'm starting to get slightly worried that maybe I have a slight lactose intolerance. Or also maybe a gluten intolerance. Or maybe just a shitty food intolerance. Who knows.
For the first time since I started my weight loss journey, I think I am going to try to actively start focusing on my macros. I've honestly never really done it before, but I figure at this point it really cant hurt to try. Anything at this point to help get me out of the friggin 150's again would be lovely. I am also going to start logging my food before I eat it. I realize I absolutely hate having to take time out of my night to log my food, so usually I do a lot of my activity in the morning when I have access to my work computer. So I think maybe if I try to plan the majority of my days food, I'll be compelled to make sure I eat it and try not to stray. Also, I have to start making sure I eat 1400 calories per day or less. Anything more than that is unacceptable.
Of course, my stress levels are going to increase soon. I have decided to pick up a part time job in addition to my full time job, and while I am SO excited for the extra income, I am not too thrilled about having to go back to working 60 hour work weeks. Unfortunately I'm at that point in my life where I want to be able to live with my fiance and not have to have a roommate. And I want new couches. And actual decorations for my house. And Christmas is coming up, and I want to be the world's best future wife and buy my future hubs the really nice Bose surround sound system that he's been wanting (which would also be a gift to me, because its awesome). Oh, yeah, and cant forget that at some point I want to get married. Yeah, and get a house. And have babies (wayyyyyyy in the future). Plus I need to go back to school. Because at some point I am going to need to have one job only that can pay the bills.
I also am torn between staying at my current full time job, or finding a new one. I honestly don't know where my life is heading and it scares me. I do not know what I want to do with the rest of my life, and I feel that at 24 years old I should probably at least have an inkling of what I want. Well, I definitely don't.
Thanks for reading, hope everyone is having a great day!
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