Short and sharp x my bio x i'm 35 married four children aged 12 ben 9 emily 7 lucas and 9 months oscar x my hair came out after oscar and I had to shave my head x I guess it's another reason I don't care about my weight x i'm married to matt x we have a boxer called jed two fish tanks numerous fish a lobster and two gerbil's x my mum died of cancer the day before my 28th birthday x she was 49 x i'm on maternity leave at min x I run a college kitchen x at my heaviest I was 231 lbs x I have put a lot of weight on recently due to giving up smoking so close to popping a baby lol x I know most of you think my weight is nothing but for me personally it's making me miserable x whether you are ten twenty or thirty stone if you're unhappy you're unhappy x I want to look in the mirror and be happy x I feel a fake being on here but i've nowhere else to go x i'm sorry but i'm at the i'll eat what I want today and diet tomorrow hence my weight continuing to grow x Must stop x I WANT TO FEEL ATTRACTIVE, I HATE MY HUSBAND LOOKING AT ME, I`M ASHAMED OF HOW I LOOK