The negative voices in my head are getting farther away, and I don't pay them much mind these days. Last year I weighed 232 lbs at the highest I was willing to weigh myself. I probably had been higher than that. I took off 30 lbs with the Rice Diet, but hadn't really dealt with the issues, apparently, since I gained half of it back by the time I came here. I am almost back to the 203 which I was before I hid my scale {again}. I am doing a few things together this time, including becoming friends with myself, and loving me here-and-now, not when I am thin enough. That is all such a waste of time, and it undermines ME. So, this time it's going the distance. This time, I deserve to be all that I know inside I truly am.