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Busy days and home alone at night means I'll write a journal entry now!! Whirlwind days lately. Such is life.
Late getting home tonight due to a late appointment. Oh my goodness I was STARVING!!! Two things I learned today. 1. I really need to use the facilities before I head home. When I step out into that cold air to get the mail the urge strikes and I still have a little drive home!!! Wonder if I will ever figure that one out. 2. Eating dinner late is dangerous!!!
I was so hungry I actually thought about stopping at the market and buying one of those already cooked chickens and eating it on the way home!!! But I didn't. First, I wouldn't know how much I ate so wouldn't know what to put in my food diary. Second, not safe and MESSY!! LOL!!! I did throw an extra ounce of chicken on my salad and a hard boiled egg too. Now I am just waiting for my brain to realize I have indeed supplied my body with fuel. I still feel hungry!!
Thank you all for you comments on last night's journal. It always warms my heart to read your comments. In particular, cindyshine's comment touched me, and so I want to talk a little about her. She has lost weight and kept it off ... and remained here as a fatsecret buddy for FOUR years this month!!! I am so proud of her. One of the things that warms my heart about Cynthia is that she is YOUNG and has figured this out much sooner in her life than I have in mine. That fact does my heart good. We all figure things out whenever we do ... so that isn't really a regret on my part or a criticism of myself or anyone else ... it is simply that I am so happy when someone figures out how to take better care of themselves EARLIER in their adult life. Obviously, for perhaps a myriad of reasons, I wasn't ready when I was 30 ... and that is okay. Life is interesting and takes many unexpected detours. I am honored to be her friend here ... and to have had the pleasure of getting to know her and seeing her grow and learn and be successful in maintaining her healthier body over these past 3 years that I have been here. Here's to cindyshine!!!
It is cold, cold, cold here. I think it is already down to 14 with clear starry skies outside, which means it may dip into the single digits tonight. The house was chilly when I got home. Hubby didn't wake up until his alarm went off at 1 pm which means our fire had gone out. He leaves by 2:30 pm so that didn't leave much time to warm up the house. I have a lovely roaring fire going now and will make sure I stay awake long enough to warm this place up!!!
On the scale front ... I was 196.8 this morning. So ... I am quite hopeful I will see 195 something by the weekend. Yes, Kingkeld, I am getting into the groove of the indulgence days, the subsequent up fluctuations, and then the new low by the end of the week!!! My losses might be slower than I would like (because quite frankly I want to wake up this morning and weigh 180 lbs and be "done" with this ... LOL!!!) but I am pleased with my progress. When I finally woke up and realized just how much weight I had gained it was tough to get started again. I was embarrassed. I felt like I had "failed." All the old, negative tapes were running at full volume in my head. Maybe I was destined to weigh over 200 lbs. Silly, perhaps, but how I felt at the time. Now, even though I am just barely below 200 I no longer feel that way. This isn't a race it is my life. No sense in rushing myself through the process ... as there is something for me to learn in every moment.
And so ... that's it I guess for now!!! So in closing, tonight I am grateful for ...
... self control.
... the best buddies that exist on this planet, right here!!!
... lettuce.
... the ability to think and reflect.
... my hot flashes, which along with the hysterectomy guarantee I will never be pregnant again!!
Have a lovely evening. Be kind to yourselves as I will continue to be mindful about being kind to myself. Take care!!!
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脂肪: 58.33克 | 蛋白质: 136.26克 | 碳水物: 54.15克.
早餐: sour cream, Marketside Pico de Gallo, Sliced Hickory Smoked Boneless Ham, Mexican Shredded Cheese, eggs. 午餐: Pico De Gallo (Mild), Chicken Breast Meat (Broilers or Fryers), Cottage Cheese (Lowfat 2% Milkfat), Boiled Egg. 晚餐: hard boiled egg, Bolthouse Dressing, Mexican Shredded Cheese, Iceberg lettuce, chicken breast . 小食/其他: Tribe Hummus 40 Spices, baby carrots, Mini - Crunchy Peanut Butter. 更多的......
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运动:
驾驶 - 2 小时, Precor Elliptical - 30 分钟, 休息 - 6 小时 和 30 分钟, 睡眠 - 8 小时, 案头工作（例如办公室的工作，坐着） - 7 小时. 更多的......
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I think you're on to something there... it's not a race or even a straight line. The end goal may not be what we think it is.
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Well said, Carol and Z'sMama. Have a wonderful day. Carol, congrats on the new low.
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I often forget to tell myself when i feel hungry "you've had enough". That is such a good lesson. Excellent job not stopping for the cooked chicken. That would have been a huge temptation for me. I love the way your chart is looking...very controlled and balanced.
2012年01月12日 会员：: sharonfriz
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You always (well almost always) make me smile :) Here's to a lovely warm house, a loving husband and mother and lots of good food, and you are so close to being 195 again. You and I will be neck and neck again in no time. Hoping to get below 180 but I ain't holding my breath! Hope you have a spectacular day.
2012年01月12日 会员：: sarahsmum
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I have totally neglected reading your journal lately, not good because it does me a world of good to read it. It makes me happy and warm inside and gives me strength.
And look at you! You are under 200 (which you were batteling when I read your journal last) and have well and truly left the 200s behind!
2012年01月12日 会员：: sunshine_girl
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Morning my dear friend..I am soo proud of you..eating that chicken would have made you feel guilty, even though they are not that bad cal
wise..but eating while driving could have been detrimental to the road hazards this time of year..you never know where the black ice is..Some times we are slow about starting to take care of our self..look at me
I am 58 almost 59 and just last year started to really think and do for me...but like you said its a life time goal..not a short time goal..love ya....:O)
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(((((HUGS)))) A big squeeze kind! You are too kind. Honest, I only figured it out this early because ONE chiropractor didn't call me fat and didn't blame my back issue on my heavy top (breasts) lol. I was tired of hurting and he gave me hope. Words are so powerful aren't they? Believing is even more than that. Kindness, thats motivation/reward/strength. I see so much of that in your journal. I think you just used that energy earlier in life towards other goals, career, ect. I seem to have a void elsewhere, but often feel on top of the world THINKING I can conquer those 'other' things. lol I'm such a chicken. I did grow in my heart and mind, so all I can say is I love how good feeling GOOD felt! Stick with it people, and do it for yourself.
2012年01月12日 会员：: cindyshine
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Good morning, Carol. You are doing so well. Congrats on that new low. I am working my way to "onederland" once again...it seems like getting past that number is so hard for me, but I will do it. As you say this isn't a race it is a lifelong journey...a journey to a healthy and happy life! Hope your day is wonderful...hugs, my sweet, beautiful, willowy, amazing, 50-something friend!! Love ya!
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