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Hello there, this is me. Today, I weighed myself. 169 pounds. The most I've ever weighed in my life. I'm disgusted with myself. I have gained 28 pounds in 9 months. Everything I'd lost, plus 3 pounds. And it has got to stop. I'm starting high school in 1 week and 6 days. People who lose weight in adulthood always talk about weighing what they did in high school. Well, I don't ever want to weigh this much. Ever.
This summer has been TERRIBLE for me, food and exercise wise. I've eaten whatever crap I wanted and exercised sporadically at best. I hate the way my body looks. I think back to a year ago when I first began running. That was the happiest I have ever been with my body.
I had lean muscle, I was toned, and I weighed about 140 pounds by the end of my running goal of a 5k. The lowest I've ever been while on my weight loss journey. Sure, my body wasn't perfect, but I was the happiest I've ever been about it. And I want that again. I wan to run cross country my sophomore year. But, because I cannot run long enough yet, I have a year to get my running together so that I can be prepared.
I know that running is good for me ad I that I lose when I do it. I just have to do it. I hate having crap food in the house, but I can't do anything about it. So, for the time being, I just have to exercise willpower. I need to track everything. Here's what I had to eat today.
2 waffles
fruit snacks
toffee bars
4 oz chicken
1 oz chips
1 packet Chic-Fil-A sauce
ice cream sandwich
fruit snacks
fiber one brownie
I am going to go running this evening. I just want to be able to be proud of my body while I'm in high school. I don't like feeling the way that I do. So, I'm starting my journey over. Today is my fresh start. I haven't had soda since January 8 of this year, and I won't have any until January of the next.
I want to feel good when I'm in New York with the Ensemble. That's in 2014, in March. March 14-18. That means exactly 8 months from the time school starts. I want to be in running shape again. My 10k running program is only 13 weeks long, so if I start it officially on this Monday, August 5, I should be able to run about 6 miles by November. So, I'll at the very least be able to run a 5k on November 2, if I can register for one. I want to.
I want to be in New York at a weight and in a body that I can be proud of. It'll be my first trip to New York, my first plane ride, my first Ensemble trip. I want it to AMAZING! So, I'm making a goal to be in the best shape of my life by the time I go to New York. None of my school clothes fit, I'm on the path to weighing 170 pounds, and I don't want that to EVER happen.
My goal weight is 130 pounds. I don't know if I will lose all 39 pounds in 8 months, but that's what I'm going to aim for! If I want to lose 39 pounds in 8 months, I'll need to lose 4.875 pounds a month, or roughly 1.2 pounds per week. I think if I work hard, I can achieve that end.
So, here's my plan: I'm going to once again start running 3 times a week. This really worked for me, and is very manageable. Plus, if I keep my schedule up, I'll be in shape to run High School cross country in my sophomore year! Today is the first day of a new month. It's almost time for a new school year, and I want to be ready for the NY trip in style. This is me, I'm giving myself 8 months to be in the best shape of my life!
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76.7 公斤
最近减少: 0 公斤.
还有: 6.4 公斤.
饮食准则: 不选择.
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