madaboutmoose的日记, 2012年08月6日

Monday morning and I'm dragging. Hoping some energy bursts show up soon. Some of it is due to lack of decent sleep, some due to a very busy extended weekend, some of just the emotional baggage I've been trying to unpack, and then last, but not least, some of it is poor eating yesterday evening ... always makes me feel icky.

I've not been on the scale. Several days of "different" eating has me not wanting to weigh. I am back on track today and am considering waiting until the end of the week to weigh ... hoping some of the damage will be corrected. We'll see ... one day at a time right now.

The concerts were awesome. Allison Krauss and Union Station are one of my all time favorites. We were able to take my mom too and it is a joy to watch her enjoyment. The music was sublime. The crowds exhausting. The weather PERFECT for an outdoor concert.

We were up bright and early Saturday morning after a late Friday night to begin our camping adventure. It was enjoyable but mosquito infested (I itch all over!!!) and the campground we stayed at was nosier than it is at our home!! It is very, very close to the Canadian border and our camphost says they have a hard time keeping a host because it is so "remote." BUT ... it is near the highway so we heard traffic all night long AND trains. So funny to be camping supposedly in a remote location and have more noise than we do at home. But then again ... I live in the middle of nowhere on a mountain on 20 acres. LOL!! We did take a short hike to a fall near the campground which was very pretty. We slept in our hammocks but we have some figuring out to do because by morning they were nearly on the ground. No gold panning ... it was HOT.

Not sure if we are going to try another trip this coming weekend. Summer is quickly passing around here. We have a lookout booked for labor day weekend ... that will be fun. We also want to try to have a storage unit sale the end of this month. I have a lot to do.

Well ... I wanted to stop in for a bit here before I hit my pile of files to catch up on. So ... in an effort to rebalance myself let me consider what I am grateful for before I bid you all good bye ...

I am grateful for ...

... my mother who is helping me sort out the mess I made last week.
... my cousin who graciously is also helping me sort out the mess I made last week.
... the sound of water crashing over rocks in the creek.
... coffee.
... new hiking boots which did not hurt my feet.
... music.
... forgiveness.

One other thing. I decided against participating in a pretty awesome 9 month long distance training opportunity through my work. I REALLY, REALLY, REALLY wanted to do it but I already have so much on my plate and I feel as if I have been spinning out of control. I know it was the RIGHT thing to do ... to decline ... but I am sad about it. Both my husband AND my mother thought I should NOT do it. If those two agree I know I should listen. I have picked up some very bad habits as "self care" that I need to stop. I know much of what I am struggling with is related to the impact of stress over a long period of time and I am working hard to be kind to myself and take care of myself in healthier ways. I'll get there ... I know I will but the emotions of it all weigh heavy on me. Taking on "one more thing" was not wise. Even if it was an awesome opportunity. I need to simplify and ground myself.

Okay ... getting caught on on paperwork will help so I best get at it. As always thanks for listening. While I wish I didn't have friends who were struggling like me it does help to know I am not alone. I am good at making myself be alone, not so good at reaching out and letting others "help" me.

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