debbra的日记, 2010年01月24日

SELF-PEP TALK, to be reread when slipping!!!!!

I've been floundering. I managed to gain close to 20 pounds since May, which was my birth-month. Lately I've been settling into all my worst habits of eating late, after the kids and my hubby have gone to sleep. I've been trying to strip the kitchen of all weakening foods, but I still seem to find something that tempts me.

But I think I had a small breakthrough. The key is to REMEMBER. I want to remember what it feels like to be less heavy. I felt light and happy. And I can feel that way again. I just have to stop being pulled by way of the food but by way of the exhilarating feeling of success, beauty, health, which makes me want MORE and MORE. And then I, in turn, eat LESS and LESS and LESS. I've done it before, and I can do it again. I just must CONCENTRATE!!!!! When the food is in front of me, I lose my mind. But I must remember how happy and fulfilled and youthful I feel when I'm less weight. Everything in my life is better. My family is happier. I enjoy how I look. I don't feel a slave to my stomach. I can move easier. My clothes feel better on. There's just so much happiness that comes from that state of being that I MUST do it NOW!! I continually tell myself that I'll start tomorrow. But that is a lie. If I don't do it now, it won't be done. I have the ability to achieve this, and I will!!!!! I've done it before, and I can do it again!!!!