TODAY: PTSD Childhood abuse - Caretaker - emotional eater - bad knees, asthma, COPD, Cardiac, & STRESS. Married young, 19 yrs. old. Life was life! Hubby drafted in 1966 - 68 VN. 71 & 73 blessed with our two sons. Moved to TX from WI in 76. . Big changes. 1978 hubby had a stroke = paralysis on his left side, Mentally challenged. Abuse normal! ## fast! Depressed & Defeated I join a weight loss program. Success within a year = 55# lighter and goodbye to so many inches. BUT ... Time passed .. looking into the mirror and not "seeing". # added ! December 6, 1989 our 16 yr old son was "murdered" being killed by a drug driving person. Goals now are just to stay "sane" so back to emotional eating. (Pic above taken last summer). June 14, 2017 TAKE TIME TODAY to just love myself, as I am, and accept the challenges of living healthy. I will give my "negative thoughts to the Lord" and ask for help to walk this new goal - one day at a time. I will take time to care about me - reaching out to those I can and start small steps to a HEALTHIER ME. I have all the many medical problems above, some brought on by my overweight body. I am going to take small steps to improve me, my mind, and my health. I will accept the thngs that I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. I will now today, forgive my bad choices of even minutes ago, and walk forward into the new life of a happier, healthier new me. I CAN DO IT - I have my Lord on one side, Me in the middle, and the encouragement of those around me and on this site on the other. THIS IS a NEW DAY - building a NEW ME - one step at a time. Thanks for the encouragement as WE will walk this journey ... I am not alone, and I can do all things through Christ, Jesus but I also know "support with skin" helps. Accountability is necessary for me. God bless each of you ... and may I say I am finally at home on this journey with all of you. Sharon