maybe i'm just not cut out for this stuff. i'm seeing a dr next week for a physical. i may ask about a shrink for my emotional/binge/closet/stress eating. i'm fine at the house all day when i'm busy but the drive thru after work, the drive thru frosties and shakes are all killing me. I literally have arguements with myself when i think about doing it, as i'm doing it and after i'm doing it while I'm eating the stupid food. I have managed to talk myself out of it quite a few times but not enough to make much difference. stress eating: after a long 12-14 hrs at work where i pack only healthy options, i love, love, love to hit a drive thru for something, anything bad to eat on the way home. by the time i'm home, i'm relaxed and ready for bed. i then eat a handful of tictacs so my beau doesn't know i've just inhald 2 orders of onion rings from Arby's or a large fries from McDonalds. cravings: i hide somewhere in the house, usually the basement while i'm on the computer with a pint of something sweet and cold. I have given up the Ben and Jerry's coz 1200 calories is wayyy too much for one sitting. Now i've been doing the 400 calorie pints of sorbet. sugar, i gots to have it. i don't know. is it worth it? the beau says he loves me anyway. but i don't. i don't feel sexy so it doesn't happen and that's such a waste. my beau is very handsome and i am very attracted to him. its just tough when this belly and butt are in the way. sigh.
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