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It's been 10 days since I last weighed myself, and I'm finally getting over the automatic urge to weight when I wake up. I went a little crazy when I started this new plan, but now I've settled into thinking about how healthy I want to be, and how I really don't want to get fat again. It's really pretty freeing.
Also, I am working with a therapist to figure out why I would want to binge in the first place. There seems to be some correlation with my relationships with men, and some other pretty heavy stuff. It feels good to get to the bottom of it, almost like I am getting to know a part of myself that has been deeply buried. Time to dig out the junk and get rid of it, right?
In the meantime, that new buzzword, "mindful" eating, seems to be working for me. I'm paying attention to how food tastes, and if I don't love it, I stop eating it and find something else to eat. I only start eating when I'm hungry, and stop when I'm pleasantly full, not stuffed or uncomfortable in any way. Stopping at "satisfied" doesn't really work for me because there is too much emotional involvement in being satisfied. I either eat too much or not enough.
This stuff is not easy to learn....
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