This journal entry was inspired by my buddy W4!
Family, eating & exercise.
In my immediate family I share my parents with my baby brother. My dad was a big man (he has passed now) and my mom has weighed the same for as long as I can remember. My brother on the other hand although he is confined to a wheelchair and can not walk, he is solid muscle without an inch of fat to pinch (except his chubby cheeks that he has never lost). Now doesn't that seem unfair, I think so... Anyways now the eating / exercise part of this... as a kid I was always active doing something but yet I was still obese. I had alot of tests done but there was no medical reason why I carried so much weight around with me. What people did not know is that I was a late night muncher, I would get up after everyone was asleep and fill my face with whatever junk I could find. I literally did not have a that OK you! You are full now stop. Plus I was allowed to eat the junk food around my dad as he had the bad habit of it too. My weight had exploded so severly that at age 13 I was told I had high blood pressure and that I had to eliminate salt and decrease the amount of fat that I was consuming. My mom ensured that I did this and it lowered, but once it did then I was right back to my same old eating habits. Then my second year of college I was told I had hyperglycemia. So another strict diet that I had to follow, this time I did and actually lost a bit of weight. However when that was evened out then my eating returned to normal again, and again the weight came back on. Then one day I woke up and realized I needed to make some changes. I was in the process of making these when I was diagnosed with IBS. So that meant another dietary change, and my weight went down again. During this time it actually stayed down for quite the while. Until I was diagnosed with Bi-Polar and the medications that I was put on packed on the pounds badly. That in itself was enough to make all my mental health situations really bad. Now adays tho I have finally begun to even out my weight. I still have days when I overeat badly and eat the junk food, but it is not a constant thing like before. I've also realized that I have the worst munchie attack when I am tired and trying to stay awake. I also need to do some sort of activity daily or my body will just want to shut down. I know when this happens that a dark spell is looming and I try to avoid these if I can. To say this will be a lifelong battle is an understatement. But I am fortunate enough to have buddies who fight it right along side of me. Wow this certainly helped clear my head... Happy Friday the 13th everyone... Much love....
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Your journal today is very "deep," "telling," and hopefully 'Helpful" for YOU! The observations I see that might help the most are as follows. 1. The secretive aspects of (our) eating. To 'own" that fact & to put it out there is beneficial. 2. The medical science at the root of (our) struggle serves to clarify. (I have had medical factors too.) 3. Both the family dynamic & (our) adolescent development seem extremely POWERFUL in determining mindsets about food & activity. To ACKNOWLEDGE these facts is good. You have done AMAZING when we consider your circumstance! You continue to use those long legs to STRETCH above what could be a life long HURDLE. So proud of you for NOT making excuses!
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WOW! Thanks for sharing all that. You are doing so great Pam, you'll make it, just like I will. Everything will be alright and we'll make those goals we have by winning every battle we face. Have a great day!
2012年07月13日 会员:: QuirkyNat
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W4.. I wish I had long legs.. but they are short and powerful.
Nat.. yes we are winning battles... support of buddies is the key:)
2012年07月13日 会员:: pam-u-la
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I have tree stumps for legs. But they are shapely tree trunks with some definition. He-he-he-he-he! A tree trunk can't leap!
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Wow. I didn't know the extensive health issues/problems you've been through. You are a trooper, I must say. And to keep the positive attitude you have is incredible. Do you still take the bi-polar meds or have you been able to do without them? And I totally agree, being tired turns the kitchen into a snack emporium. A specific diet is a hard thing to maintain with health issues because the wrong thing can throw it all into a tailspin with days of recovery to follow. I always find it amazing how much my moods and emotions are affected by 'bad' food. We all break down and want to 'throw in the towel' from time to time cause it's all just such a pain in the ass...all the damn planning and 'watchdogging' of our food, but you are not alone in your struggles. Remember this. ;-) I believe on here, we all have each others back. And thank you for sharing this with us!
2012年07月15日 会员:: ppphhhttt
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Hey Kidlet! You doing okay? I am looking forward to a new journal entry. No guilt trip - just interested & curious!
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Posted a journal today and replied to yours! I hope I did not offend you. Pleasde let me know if I have.
2012年07月15日 会员:: pam-u-la
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